I spent the whole of a chilly yesterday bundled up in 25 layers watching
season one of Joan of Arcadia on youtube. I meant to leave the house,
but I just didn’t manage it. The hot water had been acting up and I had a
lukewarm bath that had left me shivering and cross (hence the 25 layers) and I
just couldn’t contemplate having to strip down to nothing in order to change
into real clothes from my pyjamas and so inside I stayed. I think Wednesdays
are as hard on me as they are on Spiderman. It is his long working day where he
works all day at one job and then comes home for around 45 minutes for a quick
meal and then goes out to his evening job. For him it is fatiguing, for me it
is lonely. It is easy to be overwhelmed by loneliness.
“No!” I said with rising panic.